♕ Today's Promise: “Therefore, thus says the LORD, ‘If you return, then I will restore you—Before Me you will stand; And if you extract the precious from the worthless, You will become My spokesman. They for their part may turn to you, But as for you, you must not turn to them.’” Jer. 15:19
Dear Brides, I know the sound of surrendering your desire for marriage restoration, your EH (earthly husband), and the life you wanted is hard. It's been very hard for me and it is, still. But, this chapter is slowly breaking my heart and slowly making me realize how joyful it would be to not care about what we wanted and what we longed for when what we all have is the Lord. This chapter will give you the foundation to have a heart knowledge of our Lord. This will be the start of your abundant journey.
I've read this chapter many times and read the verse many times but this time around, I am given understanding of how Michelle has also understood the wisdom. Although it seems that it hasnt spoken to myself, but it gives me understanding why Michelle was touched by this verse. Before, it was just plain words to me and plain words to me when Michelle explained it in this chapter.
From this chapter, HE taught me the word "surrender" and that "abundant life is one that is surrendered" and that surrendered to all the wants that we think will make us happy and all the control that we think we need to have on our lives (and the lives of all the people around us). Although I have known this many times, this time it touches my heart and I know that I haven't surrendered it all. I still cling to my desire and what I want in my life. I still don't know how to surrender it all. But, thankfully, this chapter refreshes my mind that the abundant life starts with surrendering it all to the Lord.
I've learned so much about "surrender". This chapter has opened my eyes to surrender all that I've been struggling with my own terms and force. For so many years, I've been struggling with letting go (not only with my marriage restoration but also with my career, studies, and my self-discipline). Right now, I'm so worn out and exhausted and feeling apathetic. For years, I've been struggling with self-discipline especially my time management. But I fought it with all my might and believed that God would grant it because my intention was to have time for the ministry, for Bible reading, and for RMI resources reading. Sadly, I haven't been successful in my struggle to establish self-discipline and time management. Now, I know, because I haven't surrendered it all to my Lord. I fought it through my own force in that I am so devastated when the world doesn't go my way. All failures leave a sting on me because the Lord is not in my heart and my force and will are not enough to fight the world. I need to surrender it all to my Lord.
The need to surrender all you want and need to our Lord specifically is what will set me free. I would need to tell the Lord, that I surrender and that He is all I want, He is all I need and when I have HIM, I have everything in life. Perhaps, I need to say this all over again until it becomes a heart condition and a heart habit.
Dear Brides, the tug of war in your heart between the world of surrender to the Lord and showing your power and might is strong. You, like me, want to achieve that abundant life that everyone envies. You will not find it until the Lord is all you want and all you need. It is hard to find the Lord in our hearts because most of the time we know the Lord in our reading. Hence, we need to surrender our will and might and everything we desire to HIM. I know it is very hard but we should start by saying those words that Michelle said "Lord, You are all I want, You are all I need and You are all I'm living for." Then, we can start to surrender and find that abundant life.
~ Fidelma in Liloan
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