Times of calm and times of breakthrough.

"The Lord thwarts the plans of the wicked" (Psalm 146:9)

How can we not begin this report of praise without thanking my Heavenly Spouse for his goodness, his love for me and his fidelity. My Love, my Beloved, I love you more and more every day!

A few weeks ago, my spouse told me that he was going on a weekend trip with the other woman. It's the second time he's gone on a weekend trip with her and like the first time, I just replied: "OK, it's noted". Of course deep down I was sad, because I thought he would take our eldest son to my mother's house, as he usually does, where he currently lives for his studies.

So between the announcement of the weekend and the D-Day, I began to turn even more to my Heavenly Bridegroom and to his Word and I came across a verse from Psalm 146:9 which says in my version, at the end of the verse, that "the Lord thwarts the plans of the wicked". Other versions say: "But he thwarts the plans of the wicked" or "but he reverses the way of the wicked".
I copied this verse into my 3X5 cards and began to declare it and pray about it, every day.

On Saturday morning, around 10 a.m., just before he left, my spouse went to the gym. I then thought that finally he was not going away anymore because during his first weekend he had left the house very early. I didn't say anything because I don't talk much. But the enemy started attacking my thoughts. I prayed and the Holy Spirit made me understand that God had everything under his control.

Around 11 a.m. he told me: "See you tomorrow, I'm leaving". So, I stayed with my children and fasted and prayed for the 2 days. I cried out to God that I needed Him more than ever to sustain me, to strengthen me and that I wanted only Him. I wanted Him to support my children as well (it's not easy for them because they are aware of the situation, but my spouse doesn't know that children know everything).
Saturday went well with my three teenagers. I praised God with songs of praise, I read the Word with the children, and we prayed.

The next day, around 3:50 p.m., I was in my room, and I was praying to ask God to help me let go completely, to help me not to worry about what the children's earthly father is doing, whether he comes home late or not. I wept to Him because I know that He collects my tears in His wineskin, and after a while, I felt a peace come over me. I also asked Him to show me how to show unconditional love to my spouse by "arranging" circumstances for me to show him (the wall of hatred has completely fallen since I accepted his divorce petition. He has never left the house even though he often tells me "I'm going to do such and such work before I leave" and no papers have been deposited! Glory to God! He said it could wait!).

I hadn't even finished praying when I heard a car noise. I thought it was the neighbours because my spouse had told my son that he would be home late and that was the reason why he couldn't drop him off at my mother's house.

I looked out the window and saw his car, and then I heard him come in and asked my daughter if I was there. He went upstairs and I asked him with a big smile if he was okay. From his face, I saw that something was wrong. He told me no, that during the whole weekend his neck was stuck and that he could barely turn his head. He told me that he thought it had happened to him the day before, at the gym and that the pain had intensified throughout Saturday and Sunday.

I knew at that moment that God had acted on my behalf! But I felt nothing but compassion for him. That's when I saw that God changes me because before I would have thought of something like "it's well done for you!". But not at all! I even felt his suffering and I felt sorry for him. I was looking for a pain cream and patch because I could see that he was really in pain.

I offered to massage him (I didn't like to do that before) and surprisingly, he accepted. He even asked me to massage his entire back because it gave him relief.

God not only allowed his weekend not to go as he hoped: "he thwarted the plans of the wicked" (his Word is the truth!), but he also allowed me to show him kindness, gentleness, and compassion.

Even the meal I prepare for him in the evening and for which he sometimes tells me "you don't have to do that, it's not going to change anything", this time, he took it by saying: "The plate in the fridge, is it for me? Thank you very much ».

I know that sometimes it feels like nothing is happening and things are at a standstill. But through this praise report, I want to encourage someone and say that God acts but in His time, that we must trust him, wait with faith and perseverance. He makes all things work together for our good.

I know that the battle is difficult, but God "arranges" times of calm and breakthroughs even in the valley of the shadow of death, to allow us to regain strength and know that he always acts, that he is always at work and that he works as John 5:17 says!

Our God is faithful!