Unsurmountable Bills and Debt

Dear brides: This month has been a month of unsurmountable bills and debt. Being the sole provider in my house, I am wondering, and worrying about how it’s all going to get done. I was good at saying all the time “that’s not in my budget”, “I can’t afford that”, “not now”.

After reading Erin’s testimonies and her principles in Chapter 7 “Cornered”  I can now say that My Lord will provide according to his riches in glory. My Beloved will take care of my finances and your finances too. Make sure to tithe, and apply the reap and sow principles and give where needed especially when you are in dire need. Your HH adores you. He longs for you. He wants to be your First Love today and forever. Draw close to him and he is waiting for you.

Some days I struggle with myself. With negative thoughts and worry. I am understanding that the Lord loves everything about me even my struggles, my worries, my fears. I’m learning to cast my burdens on my Heavenly Husband who is longing to have compassion for me.

My 12-year-old daughter needs braces and a new computer for school. I caught myself overthinking about it. I went to the Lord with these issues and laid them at his feet. He is my provider and he will help me in this area. The Lord is faithful and his word does not return void. I prayed and felt better afterward.

Isaiah 64:6 โ€œAll of us have become like one who is unclean, and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags; we all shrivel up like a leaf, and like the wind our sins sweep us away.โ€

Titus 3:5-7 Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to his mercy he saved us, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing of the Holy Ghost; Which he shed on us abundantly through Jesus Christ our Saviour; That being justified by his grace, we should be made heirs according to the hope of eternal life.

These verses mean that we are saved by grace. Our works are compared to filthy rags (ouch). We need to ask the Lord for more grace.

Hebrews 4:12 โ€œFor the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.โ€

Reading his word and spending time with him has set me free from worldly thinking and worldly things. Those things fade away but his love is eternal and everlasting. I try every day to live out the principles that I am learning. It is a lot to process but the more I spend time reading my scripture cards and talking to my beloved, it gets better. I share when the opportunity arises with my children or at work.

Letโ€™s pray as we cast our burdens on our HH: My Beloved Lord. I thank you for your unconditional love for me and for being so patient with me. I know that this is all part of your plan. Me being cornered is just a setup for your glory, for my blessings and for my Abundant Life. Fill me with your wisdom to take to heart of all this reading and principles. I know that you long to have compassion for me and I long to be your forever bride. I am yours and you are mine.

Dear Brides: This Chapter 7 “Cornered” is a continuation of finances. I have hope now. I was a worrier and it would cause me anxiety and headaches. I now lay it at the foot of my Beloved in prayer and wait. Do not doubt because it would rob you of your peace. I like to take out my scripture card and read his promises back to him. It is all a set up for his glory and testimony for you Beloved Bride.

Poverty Mentality is a book you must read. It will take you out of that Poverty Mentality by providing principles and the word of your HH. Our HH died for us to live an Abundant Life not to live a poor life. This crisis is happening to show God’s love, his power and provide a testimony for you. Not just a regular testimony but a powerful testimony of his love for you. The Good News is that he never leaves us throughout this process. He carries us in his loving arms.

~ Gracie in New York