I Didn’t Feel Good Enough

♕ Today's Promise: "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." Psalm 139:13- 14

~ Liora in Texas

☊ PRAISE from Liora

Today my PR (praise report) is about how the Lord has been showing me all the things I needed to learn to take care of my family. During the pandemic last year I quit working like most of the world and He used this time for my good. I read the Workers@home book and I became more organized and I learned to keep things nice and clean all the time. I guess with more time, I was able to see how being clean and organized could make things much easier and how there's just a calmness when the home is running smoothly and there's no clutter or mess. Although I lived with my sister and her husband and kids, I would help her with her home but especially my room and my clothing and organization.

I also learned to be a better cook. My sister is a very good cook and knows how to make many great Mexican dishes. She is the main cook when my immediate family gets together to celebrate birthdays or anniversaries or just to spend time together. During the pandemic i would watch her cook and I learned how to make different things.

I even learned to make flour tortillas which is a popular food in my culture! Kneading the dough manually, rolling it out with a pin and cooking them was something I never could have imagined that I would learn to do because I never desired it before. Back when I was married I would never agree to learn to make them because i had a job outside of the home and for my husband to ask me to make him these traditional foods that he liked was so wrong to me, and I thought that I shouldn't have to. Now I enjoy making them so much even though it is a lot of work because I truly enjoy being a woman who knows how to cook and serve her family which is my first ministry.

Recently my sister hurt herself and was in a lot of pain and could barely walk. I had to make dinner for her husband and the family one night and I was very nervous as I know that her husband is very picky and loves her cooking. I do help my sister cook for us but I'm never in charge of the full meal and this time I was. So I made a homemade beef soup that is very popular in our culture with many vegetables and seasonings. Her husband came home from work and he didn't know that I was the one who made dinner.

As we were all at the dinner table I was so nervous for him to take the first bite, I was practically sweating but trying not to pay too much attention to his reaction. He took a bite and said, "oh man this is so good"! My sister looked at him and told him "your sister in law made it!" He then looked at me surprised (lol) and kept eating, even served himself twice! While I was cooking I kept having bad thoughts in my head that I wasn't good enough to be cooking and that I had never been able to cook as well as my sister but I know these thoughts were not coming from my HH (Heavenly Husband) because He knew I could do it.

I always felt like the Lord blessed my sister to be a great cook, mother and wife and she was just so beautiful. I was always told I was the brains and she was the beauty. I always thought I was just blessed with knowing how to hustle and work hard at jobs outside of the home because I thought I was good at it, and I took pride in myself when everyone would just praise me at how great of a leader I was, like my mother and how I knew how to do all these great things. It was definitely a void I was trying to fill because I didn't feel good enough. Deep inside I really wanted to be a housewife but the enemy would always tell me that I would never get to experience just being a good homemaker.

I just want to praise my HH (Heavenly Husband) for being so patient with me and using this time during the pandemic to teach me so many things, not just cooking and cleaning but learning how to lean into Him for everything.

"For we are God's handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." Ephesians 2:10

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." Psalm 139:13- 14

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