♕ Today's Promise: “Because I love Zion and longing for Jerusalem, I can not keep quiet. I will not stop to pray for the city until justice is done for her like a new day, and her salvation burns like a torch.” Isaiah 62: 1
We are almost at the end of January 2021 but I think back a lot to 2020 and how I experienced the year.
My divorce was finalized October 2019, Nov 2019 I was a wreck, everything went awry, financially I was on my knees, then my brother still lost his job. My earthly husband looked for my rings back and with it for him and the kids (and the other woman and her kids) booked a holiday over Christmas 2019. The prospect broke me, I was really at breaking point. But what was supposed to be the bad week of my life became the best week of my life. While my kids were on vacation with earthly husband and other woman, I was so broken that He had to pick me up, and He did not pick me up !! I locked myself in the house that week, except for Christmas Day and I talked to Him, cried, fought, but in the end He pulled me out of the deep, slimy pit and by the time I was back my earthly husband and children saw, I underwent a great change. So much so that my earthly husband suddenly started spinning around me, we got along so well. I hear now, months later from my former sister-in-law, that they heard we were together again ??? I did not know it 🙂 🙂 🙂
Anyway, when we entered the first lockdown, we were much closer to each other and we spent time together and hung out over and over again. BUT the time was not right, I was not right and the other woman is and still is in the picture. I started withdrawing when I realized she was still in the picture (my heart was definitely not ready yet), there were also times I did not want to be at my earthly husband, if I was there, I wanted to be at my Heavenly Husband:). My Heavenly Husband knew I was not ready yet and took my earthly husband away again. He moved on and I only see and talk to him when he picks up or drops off the kids.
But on top of what happened between me and my earthly husband, I enjoyed the lockdown. It was time for me to be calm, to be with Heavenly Husband. Financially He took care of me all the time and my children and I did not lack anything. There were times of indescribable joy and peace in my life and times of sadness. But He carried me through everything, and the times of sorrow were not nearly as bad as it was 2019. I went from financial deficit, to enough, to enough with little extra. There were times when I had to fight against thoughts and memories that drove me crazy, caused me to forgive again, but He carried me through it all and brought me back to a place of rest and peace.
But the most important thing that happened in 2020, I got to know my Heavenly Husband, I started to see His hand in my life, I could see and experience how He cares for me and my children, how He cares about the little things in our lives, not just the big things. I can honestly look back on 2020 and say it was good because I had Him!
”Because I love Zion and longing for Jerusalem, I can not keep quiet. I will not stop to pray for the city until justice is done for her like a new day, and her salvation burns like a torch. The nations will see your salvation, and the kings shall see your glory. You will get a new name, what the Lord himself for you.
The Lord will make you like a crown of glory in his hand, a king's crown in the hand of your God. They will no longer love you, do not mention the Outcast and your country is no longer the Abandoned. You will be mentioned: "One I Love" and your country: "My Bride." The Lord loves you, and your land belongs to Him. As a young man marry a girl, so your children will take care of you. And as a bridegroom rejoices about his bride, so your God will rejoice over you.” Isaiah 62:1-5
”The Lord makes an announcement all over the earth: Tell Zion: Your Savior is coming! Behold, his reward is with him.” Isaiah 62:11
~ Adina in South Africa
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