MY TEST – EVALUTAION

My estimate exam

King James Bible
Consider what I say; and the Lord give thee understanding in all things.
2 Timothy 2-7

For years, my dear wives, I endured the weight of constant failure, I locked myself in a cocoon where I felt as if I had neither ability nor intelligence. I felt like an idiot with no ability at all. Wait a minute, wait a minute. No, I wasn't behaving like a victim, but rather the victim of my own voices and those of the enemy, which I fed through my writings while reminding myself that I'm not a competent woman. Moreover, it was when my spouse was used by the enemy to repeat to me that I wasn't a level-headed woman.
After a while, I asked myself what a level woman is.
Do I have to demonstrate that I have nothing less than nothing?
No, I didn't demonstrate to anyone, but my Beloved Lord demonstrated that I wasn't what the enemy said I was and that the phrases I had allied myself with were simply lies.

I was not only fueled by failure, but also by fear, a fear of the road. I'd always said to myself that I wouldn't drive a car because in Mauritius, people drive so badly and the number of accidents keeps increasing year after year, that's what the enemy kept telling me.
I had absolutely no intention of driving. I told myself that, but my Darling Lord urged me to take my road signs test.
During the test, I was feeling anxious my hands were wet, I was tallying up all my mistakes, well it was KATELEEN's panic, but my Darling Lord was helping me by supporting me with answers or stopping to think.
The funniest thing was that I was the last candidate to get the results and to my great surprise, we passed, I don't say ME because He was with me. We passed this exam safely.
And I realized that I should never neglect my skills again, I went home with tears in my eyes and repented to my Darling Lord for having caused so much damage due to my harmful actions of FAILING.
I asked him how I could pay for the driving lessons and remembered an experience.

And I've learned my lesson. That's no longer my concern.

7 thoughts on “MY TEST – EVALUTAION”

  1. oh how wonderful. This is something that only He can do. I love how He shows us where we are missing the point, where we are off, and turns our hearts and minds to Him. I am so happy for you to have experienced this whole thing and I am excited to hear about all the other areas he sets you free in, not just driving!! he has so much for us!!

    1. My dear Rasa, since I arrived at RMI I’ve been amazed every day to see how our Beloved is working to restore our lives… During this journey He has healed me of so many wounds of my own making, but today, as I read the life lessons in each blog, I can only see the greatness of His love for repairing this area.

  2. Recently my former husband told me I’m so difficult. I was in the past but don’t see how I’ve caused him anymore difficulties now for years. At the same time he called me to be by his side when he was in pain and needed peace. The enemy will always try to convince us that we are defined by our sins of the past. But our Beloved always covers the lies of the enemy with His Truth. You were told that you are not a level headed woman but yet your Beloved Husband showed you otherwise. You passed a difficult test. With Him all things are possible and only our Creator can define us. I love when He shows us the truth and sets us free from the lies. When the Son has set us free, we are truly free indeed and there is nothing the enemy can do about it!

    1. Thank you my dear Ruby, this test was a cure for lack of esteem but I am really amazed by the way in which he does it because many of us seek cures through our own efforts and when it is he who leads us …he does it simply without making it difficult for us. For years of this, I devoured books, preaching, I prayed for it oh my I repented about fifty times because of this, but this simple test freed me from all this contradictory weight.

  3. Wow congratulations precious Kateleen and how special that you did with Him.
    I would always tell myself I am not so intelligent but now I know it is just more and more proof apart from Him I can do nothing. And yes so many times I don’t grasp something the first time, but that doesn’t make me not intelligent, I get to lean more on Him.
    It reminds me of this Living Lesson 88 – Have to or got to – https://youtu.be/PsalGWXKG78

    1. Precious Jannine, he is really exceptional the funniest and what made me laugh for a while during the exam I heard him tell me the answers but I am HAPPY today I AM FREE OF THESES VOICES . Thank you for sharing the video.

  4. ‘But in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. ‘
    Romans 8:37
    https://www.bible.com/es/bible/103/ROM.8.37

    Dear Kathleen, it is true that the voices of the enemy, which he puts in us or that come through others, do so much harm to us. They only come to steal our peace. But we are more than conquerors, because Our Beloved is with us, and He blurs those lies.
    Keep going, precious, and He will sustain you and help you finish your classes successfully.

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