Praise the Lord He is faithful! My EH is expecting a child from the OW and it was something that brought me a lot of pain. I have been praying and fasting, asking my Lord to prepare me and to strength my heart for what is coming. The baby is due in a couple of weeks. A couple of days ago, Thursday, I was struggling I can’t lie. But I kept seeking Him. Taking my pain, hurt, and worries to Him and only Him.
My EH came home early from work, which he hasn’t done for a very long time. He wanted to see our kids’ activities, my son had a track meet and my daughter had a gymnastics class. I had prayed a couple of days earlier to my Beloved to turn my EH back to our kids. And now he was wanting to see them, which he hasn’t done in a while.
We had a wonderful time and he saw a lot of things that I’ve been wanting him to see so I would always go to my Lord and tell Him about it. My daughter was the state champion of competitive gymnastics but because my EH was “reduced to a loaf of bread” we can’t afford it anymore. It would always break my heart to see my daughter without her gymnastics but I gave it to my Lord and I know that He has done it for many reasons, not only because of my EH, also because He wanted me to Himself and He knew gymnastics is very time-consuming for our family time.
Well, my mother is currently paying for a very basic tumbling class for her 1 day a week to start her up again. She looks so happy when she is doing it. I was so angry and bitter at my EH for him getting us to this point, but I truly gave it to my Lord and I am content. My EH went Thursday to see her and it broke his heart that his talented daughter has been so affected in all that has happened. I kept praising Him because I wanted him to see everything that was going on in our lives that I felt he was blinded to. Praise my Lord He is changing me. I did not say a word! I kept quiet and was gentle and kind all the day. I passed my test! 🙂 I felt Him guiding me the whole time. Then after what I felt a very successful evening, the true test came.
When we were getting ready to go to bed, he told me the OW texted him saying she was in a lot of pain and if he could help her get to the hospital. Ladies I have been praying for these moments and His peace came over me!! My EH told me he had to leave to go help the OW and I just agreed and said ok. No crying, I didn’t feel pain or rejection at all! PTL!
As soon as he left I went into my prayer closet, not to cry and whine how I use to you—saying why is this happening but to praise Him!!! I kept asking Him how He wanted me to pray and telling Him I didn’t want to interfere with His process. While I was praying and praising Him my EH came back and said she had a friend help her! I don’t know if my EH was testing me or if it was Him also testing me but either way I felt like I did it! My EH didn’t find me crying, he found me in complete peace. I didn’t go back to my old ways! I can’t believe how far I have come with Him always on my side!
That night my EH and I stayed up late talking. I still didn’t say much and was very careful when I did speak. He thanked me for not going the world’s way in this process that we are going through! He asked me a lot of questions and asked if any men have approached me or if I have been on any dates! Just like Erin said, I had to tell him that He has guided me and helped me not take the wrong path and I had to give my Lord all the glory and praise Him out loud for my EH to hear what He led me to answer. He is faithful! He is truly all I want, all I need and all I live for!!
Deut. 7:9 “Know therefore that the LORD your God, He is God, the faithful God, who keeps His covenant and His loving kindness to a thousandth generation with those who love Him and keep His commandments;”
Ladies, He is faithful. He does not change. He is the same from yesterday, today and tomorrow. He will keep His promises if we love Him and obey Him.
~ Jannelle in Oklahoma
Watch for Jannelle’s upcoming Restored Marriage Testimony “EH Confessed OW was Expecting his Child” in September!