Today I finally feel I've arrived at the place that I've been seeking and praying God to bring me to. Praise Him who promised us that with him all things are possible for I've seen his faithfulness and experienced his love in a mighty way. I just want to praise his name and give him all the glory and honor for it has taken his hand to get me to this point. How I love You!!
Days ago marked the start of a true change in me and I just felt that I was about to experience a total breakthrough and answer to my prayer. I've prayed for full surrender to God, to trust him with my burdens but above all that he becomes No.1 in my life and be my HH “Heavenly Husband. I never fasted prior to my marriage storm but recently I took a leap of faith and started fasting a day at a time. This has helped me experience a deeper connection to God.
I cried and asked God to also break me, make me surrender to his will and make me his Bride. My tears were of hope and joy as I experienced the embrace of his love. I just knew that something had shifted and it was like Gods voice was clear to me for the first time saying that he had heard my cry and seen the desire I had for Him.
I did my RYM journal last evening and was pasting Bible Verses when the screen refreshed and I lost all the work. I searched the history list but it was all gone. I screamed hard saying to the enemy "you cannot stop me! You can try to slow me down but you'll not win and I'll keep pushing to the end" I redid the work this time on email first as suggested. My desire to surrender to God was constantly expressed in this journal and I know the enemy knew my breakthrough was near and that's why he was sabotaging it. I thank God that he didn't win.
I woke up this morning literally smiling and just looked at the ceiling and screamed "You've done it, Lord! Yes, it has finally happened and I can feel it that you have finally taken your rightful place in my heart as my HH". I am in tears writing this as feelings of gratitude and brokenness just engulf me and my heart is overwhelmed by his love and peace. I have not known peace, joy or a sense of freedom as I feel right now.
I never had the courage to write a Praise Report before but I cannot contain this in me. I just wanted to share and let you dear Brides know what the Lord has done for me and encourage you that when we ask him to help us get to the point of surrender he will do it. He's made me his Bride and can do it for you too. I pray that you get to experience the same level of joy and peace I feel right now. I've no fear and the weight has been totally lifted off my shoulders. My full focus now is on My King and my HH.
As I read today's word from "My Beloved", God continued to speak in such a clear way. It said, "He makes us lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters". The message that follows was a perfect confirmation and I can testify to that as prior to this I was exhausted and in pain. It said "He makes us weary in our fasting to make us lie down; He allows our human efforts in restoring our relationships to wear us out to make us lie down" Praise the Lord for he never fails to speak to us when we search for him. The songs "The Way" by Pat Barrett, "Who you say I am", "I Surrender" and "I give you my heart" by Hillsong have filled my morning with praise and I hope they'll touch and encourage all you fellow Brides.
Isaiah 54:5
For your Maker is your husband—
the Lord Almighty is his name—
the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer;
he is called the God of all the earth.
Just as I was about to write my Praise Report on Him being my HH (finally!) and my journey over the last couple of days, I saw Sara's report quoting this word. What a confirmation from God (its what I fasted and prayed for on same day she wrote it) and to show me this just as I was just about to write and praise him for becoming my HH.
James 4:7
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
God led me to this word 3 days ago on my first day of fasting and I have spoken it over and over since then and true to his word I am now in full submission to him and the devil has lost his grip on me.
Psalm 23:2
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
By becoming his Bride he has delivered on this word.
~ Vera in Ireland