“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they will not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched, Nor will the flame burn you.” I432
Hello beautiful brides!
I have a few wonderful things to share! When I first was led to this precious ministry, I only wanted my husband back. I only wanted him to love me. But as time went on, I began to see the error of my way, and how the Lord turned my EHs heart. A year of intense fiery trials truly did have their effect on my heart. I learned to trust Him like I never knew possible. I learned that He can carry me safely through every fiery trials, and that He won’t let the fire burn me. That I can have joy and peace and a life in abundance through Him.
I used to strive to get to that place where He was all I wanted or needed! Suddenly it was like I broke through a wall. I felt like I was finally free! So content and happy with just my Love. Well, my EH began reaching out to me more and more. He emails me every single day, and his heart, oh my dear sisters is soft. It’s kind and gentle. But my heart?! It began to fear again. I began to tell myself that I must not let down my guard in case he changes his mind! I began to keep my answers and replies short, when it came to issues if the heart. Not showing him my heart at all. I am praising Him that right now we are only able to communicate through email, because it gives me time to ask my Love what I should say, and delete things that I shouldn’t.
My Love also has been showing me that my walls have been up for so long, because all I’ve been through in my life, and that all these feelings, I can’t even put words to. I have only been able to identify fear, anger and sadness and happiness Those were the only feelings I could identify. Now there are more feelings I get to bring to my Love to explore and have Him help me with. I know that my Love wants to be the One that I go to to, with every fear and concern. Not unload them on my EH. What better counselor than Him who knows me perfectly?! Who understands better than the one who made me and holds me tightly?
I found myself striving to have the perfect answers, that would please my EH and I realized I can’t do that either. I must crawl back into my Loves arms and be fully in His love so that I am filled with Him and He will lead me through. In His perfect wisdom. I need him now more than ever.
I know how you feel. It’s amazing to see our faith grow and to finally reach the point where He’s all we need and want. I used to put up walls to avoid getting hurt, but that just ended up making me bitter. It’s so great when we realize that we need to bring everything to Him – all our fears and doubts. He’s the only One who truly gets us.
Dear Rasa, I recognize so much of what you write. When I came to this ministry, my only desire was to get my earthly husband back. I would do anything for it and tried hard to be a perfect wife, I also always wanted to give the best answers. But I had to learn to let go of my marriage and my earthly husband. That has been a real struggle! And now I still have to learn to let go of my FH and the restoration of my marriage. But that is much easier now that I experience how wonderful it is to have a Heavenly Man. I am so grateful that I have Him