The Cave

But this is a people plundered and despoiled; All of them are trapped in caves, Or are hidden away in prisons; They have become a prey with none to deliver them, And a spoil, with none to say, “Give them back!” Isaiah 42:22

Dear brides

During my journey I was searching for a way of becoming a better person, better wife and mother
but in the wrong places and with the wrong people, I did not go to the wonderful counsellor which is the word of God.

I know that I am forgiven but during my journey as I would come to know more the word and journal the lessons it worked like a mirror, it showed me what I was like and I did not like what I saw, I saw that I was cruel and selfish, I thought, is there hope for me? Just like Isaiah when he found himself in the presence Of God and the first thing he realised was that He was a man of unclean lips. And God sent an angel with coals of fire and with them he cleansed Isaiah's lips and said,”Your iniquity and guilt are taken away.

It took me a while to understand that in my union with Christ I have become a new creation, I was no longer how I used to be, the old has passed away, behold the new has come!I suffered with guilt and condemnation a lot.

One day I had a vision and in that vision I was telling God how could he be calling me to serve Him when l was having all of these flaws, and I had a list in my hands with all my wrongdoings and how bad and unfit I was, He took the list and threw it into the fire and gave me a note of 50 pounds instead for I go and buy something that I liked. Isn't He amazing!

This week I was talking with Him about the mistakes with my mouth and in my attitudes, and that I did not obey Him as I should. Even though I confessed and asked the Lord for forgiveness, I was again going back to my old mindset, of feeling guilt and condemned.

I was telling the Lord that I felt so inadequate to dance and praise him after all that I have done. But He was telling me to rejoice, I was wondering if I was hearing Him right, He reminded me that once I went to him crying and feeling condemned and I asked him what He thinks of what I have done, and He also told me to rejoice, I though is that scriptural? I did not believe it, so I asked Him to show me any passage that says that. He spoke Psalms 32:1 (Blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) is he who has forgiveness of his transgression continually exercised upon him, whose sin is covered.) . I said that’s right blessed also mean happy. However, this week I have forgotten this and again I was dwelling on those feelings, and could not enjoy my time with Him because I was living under a cloud of guilt. The danger of this is that it can turn into depression, hopelessness and fear. But Romans 8-1 in the English Standard version gives us a remedy for this. "There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus." And while reading romans 8 today God gave me even another deeper understanding of this, I needed to believe the truth of His word. Over what the world, the enemy or my own mind was telling me. God doesn't condemn us. So, by condemning myself I was actually in direct opposition to Him.

(The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace. 7 The mind governed by the flesh is HOSTILE to God; it does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so. 8 Those who are in the realm of the flesh cannot please God Rom 8:7-8). I did not believe it, I was double minded. (Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. James 4:8). ( I hate the double-minded, But I love Your law.. Psalms 119:113. It is funny that the sins of Isaiah were atoned by the coal of fire, and fire speak of the Holy Spirit (Acts 2:1-4) and Romans 8 : 2 says because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you[a] free from the law of sin and death.

Why are we still trapped in that cave of fear, guilt and condemnation, when His Spirit and word has set us free. Who the sons set free, is free indeed. Believe! By listening to all that others tell you, or how you look or feel instead of keeping your eyes on the Lord and His Word, it will be hard to focus on Him and His plan for your life. You will start to sink into despair and remain in that cave.

Dear brides run out of that cave into His glorious day!