♕ Today's Promise: "But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint”. Isaiah 40:3
Reading this lesson - God's waiting room - reminded me of the time I was to begin our Course 3 and the PTG ministry had a break. At this time our lessons were sent by email, so for 1 month we didn't have our lessons arriving in our inboxes 🙁 I dont have the right words to tell exactly how I felt, but for sure I was ANGRY, yes, I was very angry as I didnt have my lessons as I expected to have.
I have also to tell you that our course 2 was a game changer in my life, people begin telling me how different and beautiful I was, so in my mind it was the time to continue my courses and have my marriage restored, what was not in my plans was not to have the lessons to conquer what I - MYSELF - was planning to conquer, I felt how unfair it was - LOL!
While waiting, I tried to always have something to do: fasting, praying at dawn, reading our materials and willing to be restored. I was in God's waiting room, but I could not enjoy it, I could not rest or have my strength renewed 🙁 I was looking behind that frosted glass, imagining that I was wasting my time while others were having their restoration...
Back again to the moment we had our lesson launched to our emails again, I don't know exactly why, but I decided to ask my Beloved what He thinks and why I had this time like having nothing to do, to study, me a typical doer - it was so painful and frustrating, but I told Him, just then, that maybe it was part of His plan to me, so I guess for the first time I SG (seek God) and asked Him what should I do: going on doing course 3 or went back and making course 2 again...
And He led me to Course 2 again, yet a little bit upset I obeyed and it was in this season of time that I found Him as my Heavenly Husband <3 And for the first time I felt that it really doesn't matter if my EH (earthly husband) was coming back home or not - I have to say that there was still some fear in my heart as I thought that it could really happen, but there was also joy because I found Him, the One my heart was looking for, and I want to be forever by His side, no matter what could happen from this day on.
It was also the time my eh (earthly husband) returned home, I was so grateful, so happy... but at the same time I was afraid of losing what We had together, I was learning about the life we can have together, just the two of us, and I was willing to have it above anything else!
Today EH is at home, but I am still in God's waiting room, there are a lot of things I keep on waiting, but the most important thing is that I learned that it is hard to wait but it's worth it each second! I want to learn how to wait because this is the way He can strengthen me and change my heart to be more like His sweet and humble heart! I really want to be embraced by His strong arms and not just endure, but enjoy God's waiting room 🙂
~Paula in Brazil
Portuguese Ministry Pastor and Branch Director, for Português Team.
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