I never thought

I am writing this praise report because of the progress the Lord has made in my life. I would often wonder why, since I was frequently filled with the Holy Spirit, why I wasnt seeing the changes that I thought should be happening in my life. I kept asking the Lord, where is the abundant life that you spoke about, and why have I not experienced the change in my life I so desperately wanted. I had asked God to change me, and I wanted it to be truly me, something that was who I was, a character change.

It wasnt until I had an extreme storm that I did not know how to get out of, that God began to deal with me. I remember asking God so many times to change me, but even I said to God, you are the only one who can change me. I cannot change myself Lord. Please do what you need to. I knew He was the only one who could. After the devasting storm I had faced, God sat me down and He told me about so many things I had to repent of. The separation of me and my husband of 23 years was the most devasting thing that had ever happened to me. When I faced it, as I was trying to ignore it, a whole flood of pain began. It was a pain so devasting. I clung to the Lord so tightly. I felt I would not make it.

It was at that time He was able to talk to me about of series of things I had done that I had never repented of. He began to show me why I was not experiencing the abundant life that I thought God had wanted for me. He talked to me about obedience and about seeking the Lord, and not seeking anything else but Him. That God would provide what I needed, and what I He would supply. I went through months of repentence, crying and weeping before the Lord. God had gotten my attention. This traumatic event was the best thing that could have happen to me.

Things have been changing in my life that I never thought possible. I see character change that has come from the heart. Repentance brings changes in character. And although I had gone through the pain of separation, God used it for my good, and He is still continuing to do so. Things that I had been trying to change because of a lifetime of habit and lack of knowledge, I am seeing transformation in my life. I want to give God the praise in all of my trials and tribulations because, those are the things that got me to this place, and I thank the Lord for it. In this process, God has brought things to me that I had not even asked for. God has sent me the perfect friendships and this beautiful site.

Before I came to this site, I had asked God for restoration of my marriage and family and my children. And I asked him, without even knowing about this site, where is the abundant life. I have learned throught this site to apply scripture. I have read by example so many women in the testimonial books of woman that grew from trajedy to their heavenly husband. I know that every good and perfect gift is from above the bible says. God is growing me up in this journey and showing me truth from error, even though what might be popular might be the error, and how to stay close to the Lord through everything. I give praise to him for loving me and raising me up as his daughter,. I have learned about humility and what a wonderful thing that is! God gave me this site to teach me becuase Everyday I ask for wisdom and when I asked for it He gave me this site and I have had the faith to believe that I could change and my situation can also change.

As becoming older, I asked God before I found this sight, how can I apply “and the older women teach the younger women to love their husbands, to love their children…” This is a grand responsibility. I dont think that if I had not gone through what I have gone through with my husband would I be learning as much as I am learning now, or changing. I thank God for His mercy and love for me and his answering my prayer for wisdom. I never thought that I would be seeing the changes in me that I almost thought were impossible. I give Him all the praise and Honor He deserves.