No one could believe the lines that I write with the aim of confessing my weaknesses and to praise my Lord for his inexhaustible love and patience with me. In recent days, somewhat away from the blog and the ministry material, I have found the truth: the reality of my heart. And although it has been painful, it has also been healing. Now I know the reason for the obstacles to moving forward, taking root and therefore bearing fruit. What I write here will reveal my heart and sensitive wounds that healed falsely but which my Good Love did not forget and has touched this time for my healing.
To my blessing, my sister Anastasia is a minister here at RMI and I am absolutely sure that God has used her in your lives, but I cannot list what she has done in mine, there have been countless ways in which she has blessed me.
However, what I am most grateful to God for allowing me to see in her that older woman that we all need to see at least once. And although my admiration is for God for everything He has done in her life, I had been experiencing an incorrect attitude in my heart towards her. A certain envy for her discernment, for the way in which God shows her things, for her faithfulness and for that exacerbated passion for Him. To my surprise, in a conversation with her, the roots of bitterness and the cause of my stagnation in this ministry.
I want to praise my God and my King because in writing this praise he delivered countless contrary thoughts born in my childhood… I am saying that my inability to remain faithful, my excuses and fears were born when my mother (who did not know the Lord at that moment) highlighted the virtues, abilities and successes of my little sister while I hid chasing others…
Thanks to my Lord I can see that my reluctance to stand here has to do with envy, double-minded faith, mental laziness and if it is possible to say a spirit of comparison and inferiority that has made me feel defective or insignificant in many areas.
Thanks to my Heavenly Father, she and I try to be as transparent as He allows us and we have the joy of knowing each other so much that in a few words we know what each other’s state of faith (not mood) is like. This must not please the enemy very much… because he has tried to plant his lies. Therefore, I come to praise my God, for His exhortations and for His truth: no one is better than anyone else, nor does the Lord have favoritism, just as it is not true that she is lower or higher, nor is it true that I am governed by my emotions. MY BELOVED loves me. HE paid a high price for me. My weaknesses are for His glory and in my strength I will achieve nothing good.
THANK YOU to MY BELOVED because the journey my dear sister has experienced, has allowed me to see a real God who restores, heals and makes everything new. THANK MY LORD because by bringing me here, He has given me the resources that I never had before to understand what it was like, how to live and how to experience a relationship with God from so many different aspects: my Heavenly Father, my Comforter, my Helper, My Prince of peace, my Heavenly Husband, the Eternal Father of my children…
THANK YOU because here I understood my calling, what my ministry was and what I needed to run my own race. THANK YOU FATHER for taking care of my relationship with my sister whom I love so much and for opening my eyes to YOUR truth about the concept I have of her and myself: everything good we have comes from you. THANK YOU for revealing my heart and using my weaknesses of character, faith and physical strength to glorify You. A thousand and a thousand thanks, Beloved of my soul, you have lifted an immense weight off of me, you have touched that sensitive area of memories and you have let me see once again your inexhaustible love. How much I love you for who you are in my life.
Dráha Mio,
děkuji Vám za Vaši chválu.Snad že mě budemlivot Pán, když Vám řeknu, že to co prožíváte je důkazem Vaší správné cesty a víry. Pan nás miluje a ve Jeho slově několikrát zmiňuje, že Ti co mají bázeň před Bohem budou oslavení. To, že si to uvědomujete,rozjimate o jeho slovechavedei je toho důkazem. Pan nám neslibuje, že nebudeme procházet těžkostmi, bolestí a zkouškami,ale slibuje, že nás nebude zkoušet nad naše možnosti, vždy bude ve všem co prozivame s námi.A tak myslím, že i když Vás nechal projít si bolestivé vzpomínky ,velmi Vám požehnal.U Něho nic není nemožné.Vede Vás k uzdravení a obnově Vašeho vztahu se sestrou.
Ať Vás stále naplňuje Svou láskou a žehná Vám.
Rosa
Dear Mio,
I thank you for your praise. I hope that the Lord will comfort me when I tell you that what you are experiencing is proof of your right path and faith. The Lord loves us and mentions several times in His word that those who fear God will be glorified. The fact that you are aware of it, think about his words and ideas is proof of that. The Lord does not promise us that we will not go through difficulties, pain and trials, but he promises that he will not test us beyond our capabilities, he will always be with us in everything we go through. And so I think that even though he let you go through painful memories, he blessed you very much .Nothing is impossible with Him. He leads you to healing and restoring your relationship with your sister.
May He always fill you with His love and bless you.
Dew
This is precious Mia! “All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: 19 that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting people’s sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation.” 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
It takes courage to confess and I am glad to see God’s working in your life. “Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.” James 4:10
It is wonderful that you are able to see your weaknesses and praise God for His love and patience with you. He is working in your life in powerful ways. I am encouraged by your testimony, and I pray that He will continue to use you for His glory.
I appreciate your willingness to share your struggles with envy and comparison. These are common struggles, and it is helpful to hear how your Beloved has worked in your life to overcome them.
Dear precious Mia, thank you for just opening your heart here. I am too so grateful for this Ministry and all the resources and what the Lord is doing. Isn’t our wonderful Lord just wonderful and that He opens our eyes for the truth. It’s so wonderful the bound between sister. Me and my twin sister never got along in school and the Lord restored us and now we enjoy so much sharing and talking about our wonderful Lord and we love praying together and it is all our wonderful Lord’s touch in our lives.
Dear Mia thank you for sharing you heart. I also struggle with same things sometimes, it is great that God is working on us and making us a new creation day by day, I am also grateful for this ministry and the patient Godly, older women that we find here, I was long time searching for older women to teach me what is good before crisis hit my marriage, I was heading in wrong direction, but thank God he pointed me to the right way by leading me to RMI. Glory to Him!
Blessings
See, I will create new heavens and a new earth. The former things will not be remembered, nor will they come to mind. 18 But be glad and rejoice forever in what I will create, for I will create Jerusalem to be a delight and its people a joy. Isaiah 65:17
Dear all
Thanks for each encouraging comments, promise and blessing. God bless you all. I really appreciate His guidance from here.