My dear Lord is to be exalted forever and ever! My EH had a bunch of end of the year parties and celebrations at his job that usually made me really freak out because they involve going out of the city for the day, alcohol, dancing and spending the day with his male and female colleagues in a very relaxed environment. For the people in my country, this is a normal scenery for the end of year closure and everybody gets into these. However, as you can imagine, there are several worldly things that happen around the freedom of alcohol and it is not rare that sometimes some people get out of control and become involved in sinful chapters in these celebrations.
As I used to be very jealous and controlling before starting my RJ, I used to tell my EH that he shouldn’t attend these if he loved me. Especially because of the many things that could happen in these celebrations. He either went against my will, which would bring as a consequence long days full with my contentiousness for him to have attended, or he wouldn’t go but resented me for this for many days too. Either way, this always led to a huge fight at the end of year.
Having explained this to you dear Brides, let me tell you that I had been feeling nothing but His love for me every day leading up to the end of the year. Every hurdle becomes easy because He carries my burden, and mine is made very light and easy to take, which is only to love Him, and who wouldn’t LOVE this perfect Groom we have?
Of course, my EH had his invitation to one of these celebrations, the funny thing is that for the first time in many years, he didn’t get the invite from the company (He said that strangely he was the only one who didn´t receive the company’s e-mail)!! Second, the same day of the celebration, a colleague of his reminded my EH about the celebration, but “coincidentally” he was working on an extra report and couldn’t go with his colleagues on the arranged morning transportation. Lastly, he tried to contact this colleague to go with him but he never answered his call (which rarely happens).
I had been praying my HH to keep me quiet and to give me really the quiet and gentle spirit He wants His Brides to have. I didn’t feel tempted this year to give him my opinions or to tell him that he shouldn’t go, even though I know that if I´d told him, it wouldn’t have been seen as contentious behavior from my part because all situations showed he wasn’t meant to go. I just decided to let go, of my EH’s decisions, the situation and didn’t worry at all. I gave this situation to Him because I knew and repeated in my mind that “My heart is fixed, trusting in the Lord”.
The funniest thing was that my EH even asked me what my thoughts were about him going to these parties. This would never have happened in the past because he received my opinions even before he asked for them. I felt from the Lord he would ask me, so I prayed as I read in one of the scripts from BE Videos I´m translating for the ministry: “I shouldn´t fear about what to say, because the Holy Spirit would speak for me” 🙂 And this is exactly what happened: I answered that if I didn’t receive the invite and it was me, I wouldn’t go, but he could do as he wished, it was his decision. Having said this, he went to work and came back around an hour later. He decided not to attend the parties at all and we didn’t fight. The most important thing, to be honest with you, is that if he had gone I wouldn’t have been stressed or thinking about what could happen or about what he would do, simply because I know my HH is in control, I had been praying for Him to give us both “the way out of temptation” and what really matters is how He keeps molding me and how different He has made me, and more importantly His beautiful relationship with me. PTL!!!
“They will have no fear of bad news; their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the Lord.” Psalm 112:7
“Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.” 1 Peter 3:4
“For it will not be you speaking, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you.” Matthew 10:20
“… And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.” 1 Corinthians 10:13