Embrace your worth.
“and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in[a] Christ—the righteousness that comes from God based on faith. 10 I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death” Phi 3:9-10
This week I want to start by giving thanks to our Lover for he has been so good to me, I am very grateful.
1. After applying for my professional body regulation 1 year ago, I finally received that I was successfully accepted. This is huge because only God could have done that, there were a lot of obstacles to accomplish this and many people told me to give up, I am glad I trusted in the Lord instead even though I was tempted to give up, I am happy because this will allow me to reach to more people and more people will hear His word. (This was for an appointed time)
2. This week my husband moved away from our home, I thank my love because he told me to give thanks in all circumstances (Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus 1 The 5:16-18). I also thank Him because I was not in distress, or falling apart I was in supernatural peace, I found it even unusual. My journey started 3 years ago, and E.H lived with us, all time he never left, which meant also, frequent battles, enemy attacks, and struggles, even though God was molding me during the process I am grateful to have a break and be able to be myself, and express myself, and minister freely. I feel like I am on a honeymoon every day with Him.
I will wait for the Lord’s appointed time like this verse in this lesson spoke (“The vision is yet for the APPOINTED time; it hastens [hurries] toward the goal and will not fail. Though it tarries [seems slow], WAIT for it; for it will certainly come, it will not delay.’” Habakkuk 2:2-3.)
During the process, a thought came to my mind - if my husband wants to leave, it is because I am not good enough, or I hadn't done enough, and that has been my thought from the beginning when my husband said he wanted to leave which was 3 years ago. Guilt and condemnation were very long times with me during my journey, it took me a lot of time to understand the grace of God I had to pray for understanding. (he is doing a new thing) I needed to let go of what I believed.
My Love also said long ago that he wants me to rest, and he said there is a time for everything. (So now the case is closed. There remains no accusing voice of condemnation against those who are joined in life union with Jesus, the Anointed One. Romans 8:1 TPT).
But I kept the same mindset. It was during that moment that My love reminded me that I am valuable to Him, I felt so grateful not to have to fight or quarrel over anything, just His supernatural peace was evading me and just in time that all was happening my Love was ministering to me, telling me to embrace my worth that comes from Him (nothing that I had done), that gave me even more strength to remain calm and at peace.
Isn’t that great that all that we need is Faith in Him? I was so grateful that I burst into tears, to know how wide and long and high and deep His love for us is. His kindness makes us whole.
Because I lived for a long time trying to gain my way, through my efforts, instead of relying on the righteousness that comes from God through faith. It took me a long time to agree with my Love on this. (“and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in[a] Christ—the righteousness that comes from God based on faith. 10 I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death”. Phi 3:9
3. I am grateful that He has been a wonderful Heavenly Husband to my kids. The kids were what worried me the most, but once my Love said, that he never asked me to do this alone, meaning I am parenting with Him. The boys have been just the same, and when my younger cries sometimes for Dad, my older one says to him: “John do you want to live a long life in the land? My younger said yes. Then my older said: then be content with what you have! I laughed, but was thankful that my older one, was ok and even helped. 😊