I am an Adultress

โ€œFor His anger is but for a moment, His favor is for a lifetime; weeping may last for the night, but a shout of joy comes in the morningโ€ (Ps. 30:5).

 

Dear ladies, it is with a heavy heart that I come to you today and let you know that I have cheated on my Husband.

As some of you know, I am divorced and my ex remarried someone else.

A few weeks ago he came to visit me while I was alone and he hugged me.

I did not push him away immediately, I did not tell him no, I have the best Husband ever.

I did none of those things. I did tell him that I see no hope for us, but I did not tell him: "You are married and I want nothing to do with you" which is what I should have done. I told him later that I am not interested in him or any man at all.

I replayed that scenario in my head a thousand times and ask myself why didn't I?

I spoke to Janine my friend that day and confessed what I have done, but not to anyone else and certainly not to Erin, which I should have done right away.

What would people think of me? I am supposed to be the one that encourages all of you. I have been His bride for so many years, I am not supposed to fall into an easy trap like this.

For weeks this set me on a path of confusion and not knowing His path for me. All my peace was stolen because I allowed myself to be captured by the enemy.

My pride made that I did not confess this to Erin until she dragged it out of me and moreover, I did not want to confess it to any of you, because if you look at me you will see the women that cheated on the BEST Husband ever. He has done so much for me and this is how I repay Him.

Erin made me realize that all I want to do now is get right with Him. So I am confessing it to you all.
I have no idea what any of you would say and the fact that you may not trust me to be one of the faces of this ministry anymore and so I will have to leave the place that gave me my life back, but ultimately He is all I need so my fate is in His hands.

It was wonderful to get to know all of you and I have no idea what the future holds, but I can rest easy that my Husband has the whole future in His hands and this morning's devotional spoke to me so I want to share it with all of you.

Please read it:

March 22 Devotional

The verse says: โ€œFor His anger is but for a moment, His favor is for a lifetime; weeping may last for the night, but a shout of joy comes in the morningโ€ (Ps. 30:5).

His anger for me is for a moment, His favor for me is for a lifetime. So encouraging for me to read this. My weeping will last for a night, but I will shout for joy in the morning.

50 thoughts on “I am an Adultress”

  1. Yvonne I definitely will not stop trusting you any less or love you any less as a dear friend. Your Husband surely will not stop loving you after you confessed, His mercy and grace are new every day.

    My Husband brought this verse to mind: “When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, โ€œLet any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.โ€ https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John+8%3A7&version=NIV

    1. Thank you Adina. You are right His mercy and grace are new every morning.

  2. I actually love that you came here to admit. We all fall shortโ€ฆ If it was turned around and this happened to me, what would you say to me or how would you encourage me? Thankfully our Lord understands and he knows your heart, he forgives and wants you to let go of the shame and guilt and go and sin no more. ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•. Thank you for sharing.

    Sending Love your way. ๐Ÿฅฐ

    โ€œThen neither do I condemn you,โ€ the Lord declared. โ€œGo now and leave your life of sin.โ€ J8

    1. Thank you for your love, Hope. He does understand our hearts so much better then we do.

  3. Dearest Yvonne , Iโ€™ve been feeling disgust lately when it comes to my EH or any man in general. I have been getting physically sick every time I even think about him. I know it has a lot to do with being unforgiving and letting my pride get in the way. I had to ask my HH to help me to forgive. Today when I read your confession my first thought was โ€œ We have all been unfaithful to our HH at one point with a person or anything we put above himโ€ and just like that through your confession I was more willing to forgive and have more empathy with the ones Iโ€™ve judged so harshly. Thank you for your transparency.

    โ€œSo when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her. And again he stooped down, and wrote on the ground. And they which heard it, being convicted by their own conscience, went out one by one, beginning at the eldest, even unto the last: and Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst. When Jesus had lifted up himself, and saw none but the woman, he said unto her, Woman, where are those thine accusers? hath no man condemned thee? She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more.โ€
    โ€” โ€ญโ€ญJohnโ€ฌ โ€ญ8โ€ฌ:โ€ญ7โ€ฌ-โ€ญ11โ€ฌโ€ฌ

    1. It warms my heart to know that He has already used my sins for good. Thank you for sharing Bellisima.

  4. Querida Yvone, a Paula um dia disse me : querer se arrepender, jรก รฉ arrependimento ๐Ÿฅน

    Vocรช รฉ muito prestรกvel para todos nรณs, quando inicie minha jornada, eu li muito sobre a sua jornada, embora meu coraรงรฃo tivesse partido naquela altura por vocรช ter passado tantas coisas, depois eu fiquei agradecida a Ele por ter cuidado de vocรช durante esses anos todos, com tanto zelo.
    Entรฃo Ele agora irรก cura lรก, vocรช ficarรก bem, e nรณs estaremos aqui para encoroja lรก ๐Ÿ˜

    Amo vocรช.

    Ahhhh.. lembrei de um versรญculo lindo que tenho meditado
    ยปEstou certo que verei a bondade do Senhor na terra dos vivos!ยซ
    โ€ญโ€ญSalmosโ€ฌ โ€ญ27โ€ฌ:โ€ญ13โ€ฌ โ€ญOLโ€ฌโ€ฌ
    https://bible.com/bible/1967/psa.27.13.OL

    Com amor ๐Ÿ’–
    Lessyane

    Dear Yvone, Paula once told me: wanting to regret is already regret ๐Ÿฅน

    You are very helpful to all of us, when I started my journey, I read a lot about your journey, although my heart broke at that time because you went through so many things, later I was grateful to Him for taking care of you all these years , with so much zeal.
    So He will now heal you there, you will be fine, and we will be here to encourage you there ๐Ÿ˜

    I love you.

    Ahhhh.. I remembered a beautiful verse that I have been meditating on
    ยปI am sure that I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living!ยซ
    Psalms 27:13 OL
    https://bible.com/bible/1967/psa.27.13.OL

    With love ๐Ÿ’–
    Lessyane

    1. Oh Lessyane, I did not even know that you read anything about me. You know that all we go through, He uses for good. I have always said, if my life only helps one women, I would feel blessed. Thank you so much.

      Ah, Lessyane, eu nem sabia que vocรช lia alguma coisa sobre mim. Vocรช sabe que tudo o que passamos, Ele usa para o bem. Sempre disse que se minha vida ajudasse apenas uma mulher, me sentiria abenรงoada. Muito obrigado.

  5. On the contrary Yvonne, I don’t see you any less than His beautiful bride and neither does your Husband. He loves that you turn to Him and need Him even more and I think you are the best person to be encouraging about this subject now that you have been through it. I’ve been through a simular thing recently and I’d love to speak with you more about it. I haven’t had the opportunity to confess to other brides, though I would like to. I wrote an email to the ministry in attempt to do so but I don’t think it was received. But I believe there are brides who need to be warned about the trap that is being set before us and know the schemes of the enemy.

    https://hopeatlast.com/c2/d8-divorced/bonus-lesson-intimacy/

    https://hopeatlast.com/c2/d8-divorced/bonus-lesson-intimacy/failed-to-refrain-sabrina/

    1. Oh thank you Ruby. I feel like His beautiful bride again and seeing all of you holding my arms up is such an encouragement. Thank you. Ask Him to lead if you should not confess on a blog post, maybe on HopeAtLast, or on a lesson that you know will help women reading that lesson. I cannot tell you what to do, in the end, it needs to be Him leading you. Because of my position in the ministry, I had to bring it all out in the open and He may lead you the same or a bit differently. I am agreeing with you now that He will lead you in wisdom.

  6. Jรฉsus se rendit au mont des Oliviers. 2 Mais dรจs le matin il revint dans le temple et tout le peuple s’approcha de lui. Il s’assit et se mit ร  les enseigner. 3 Alors les spรฉcialistes de la loi et les pharisiens amenรจrent une femme surprise en train de commettre un adultรจre. Ils la placรจrent au milieu de la foule 4 et dirent ร  Jรฉsus: ยซMaรฎtre, cette femme a รฉtรฉ surprise en flagrant dรฉlit d’adultรจre. 5 Moรฏse, dans la loi, nous a ordonnรฉ de lapider de telles femmes. Et toi, que dis-tu?ยป 6 Ils disaient cela pour lui tendre un piรจge, afin de pouvoir l’accuser.

    Mais Jรฉsus se baissa et se mit ร  รฉcrire avec le doigt sur le sol. 7 Comme ils continuaient ร  l’interroger, il se redressa et leur dit: ยซQue celui d’entre vous qui est sans pรฉchรฉ jette le premier la pierre contre elle.ยป 8 Puis il se baissa de nouveau et se remit ร  รฉcrire sur le sol. 9 Quand ils entendirent cela, accusรฉs par leur conscience ils se retirรจrent un ร  un, ร  commencer par les plus รขgรฉs et jusqu’aux derniers; Jรฉsus resta seul avec la femme qui รฉtait lร  au milieu. 10 Alors il se redressa et, ne voyant plus qu’elle, il lui dit: ยซFemme, oรน sont ceux qui t’accusaient? Personne ne t’a donc condamnรฉe?ยป 11 Elle rรฉpondit: ยซPersonne, Seigneur.ยป Jรฉsus lui dit: ยซMoi non plus, je ne te condamne pas; vas-y et dรฉsormais ne pรจche plus.ยป

    En tant qu’enfant de Dieu nous ne pouvons pas juger notre prochain Jesus nous le montre tres bien quand il rencontre la femme adultรจre.
    Et ne vous comdanez pas non plus car cela ouvre les portes a l’ennemi par la culpabilitรฉ.

    “Jesus went to the Mount of Olives. 2 But in the morning he returned to the temple, and all the people came to him. He sat down and began to teach them. 3 Then the lawyers and the Pharisees brought a woman who was caught committing adultery. They placed her in the middle of the crowd 4 and said to Jesus, โ€œTeacher, this woman has been caught in the act of adultery. 5 Moses in the law commanded us to stone such women. And you, what do you say?โ€ 6 They said this to set a trap for him, so that they could accuse him.”

    “But Jesus stooped down and began to write with his finger on the ground. 7 As they continued to question him, he stood up and said to them, โ€œHe who is without sin among you, let him be the first to throw a stone at her.โ€ 8 Then he stooped down again and began to write on the ground again. 9 When they heard this, being accused by their conscience, they withdrew one by one, beginning with the oldest and continuing down to the last; Jesus was left alone with the woman who was there in the middle. 10 Then he stood up and, seeing only her, he said to her, โ€œWoman, where are those who accused you? So no one has condemned you?โ€ 11 She answered, โ€œNo one, Lord.โ€ Jesus said to him, โ€œNeither do I condemn you; go ahead and sin no more from now on.โ€

    As a child of God we cannot judge our neighbor the Lord shows us this very well when he meets the adulterous woman.
    And don’t control yourself either because that opens the doors to the enemy through guilt.

    1. Thank you Karine, because of my position in the ministry I had to come clean. Now my healing can begin. I don’t want anything to be between me and my Husband.

      Merci Karine, ร  cause de ma position au sein du ministรจre j’ai dรป dire la vรฉritรฉ. Maintenant, ma guรฉrison peut commencer. Je ne veux pas qu’il y ait quoi que ce soit entre moi et mon mari.

  7. Also to add, I also called myself an adultress. after I confessed to my Husband and fasted for 3 days, He told me to stop calling myself that. Now, every so often, the enemy will remind me and call me an adultress. I have to repeatedly say I am not, I am forgiven and set free. I am not that person anymore, I am the bride of the One True King. Don’t let the enemy tell you who or what you are or what you are not fit to be. Only our Beloved can cover the lies of the enemy. You are His new creation, His bride, free, forgiven and loved unconditionally. ๐Ÿ’–

    1. Thank you for sharing more Ruby. I will definitely keep your advice in mind for when the enemy wants to torture me.

  8. Dear precious Yvonne, I am sitting here with tears in my eyes, because I am the last person who can throw you with a stone, because I was for so many years the other women to my former husband and no I am also not going to tell you that you did the right thing to hug him, because I remember how it destroyed me little by little. But now that you confessed it I know your Darling Husband is taking over. And with this confession it just shows us we cannot do it in our own strength, because I remember I always tried to stop in my own strength, but I couldn’t and He showed me I need to rely more on Him and apart from Him I can do nothing. I will wait on my Darling Lord to see how He turns everything around, because that is just Who He is. And I will always love you and always pray for you.

    “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” 1J1:9 https://biblehub.com/1_john/1-9.htm
    “But he said to me, โ€œMy grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.โ€ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christโ€™s power may rest on me.” 2C12:9 https://www.bible.com/bible/111/2CO.12.9.NIV

    1. Yes, my dearest Janine, we cannot do it in our strength. Never. Thank you for waiting with me for the miracle that will come from all of this. I love you too.

  9. Dear Yvonne, I cannot hold back my tears as I write this ๐Ÿ˜ญ it is impossible to throw stones at you because I was also an adulteress and I know how difficult the journey is sometimes, I am convinced that your Heavenly Husband feels mercy and compassion for you, because he knows that we are humans and that we can fall into the trap. He knows your heart better than anyone and how you are feeling right now.

    None of us are exempt from falling and failing, we are human and that is why the Bible portrays to us how unfaithful we can be, yet HE reminds me that it was just when we were STILL sinners that HE loved us, so I am glad that you have You have had the courage to confess your sin to all of us and I trust that your Husband heals your heart now that you have confessed and cleanses all evil.

    โ€œBut I, yes I, am the one who takes care of your sinsโ€”that’s what I do. I don’t keep a list of your sins.” I4325 https://www.biblegateway.com/verse/en/Isaiah%2043:25

    1. Thank you Anastasia, I feel cleansed and I know the healing is starting already with my Husband. My heart is very full to see how all of you are surrounding me with love and prayers and His word.

  10. Dear Yvonne, thank you for opening your heart to us, and know that I will also never stop trusting you or stop loving you as a dear friend and an โ€œolder womanโ€ reference in my life.
    Receive all my love and feel hugged by me and of course by our Beloved too.
    I love you darling!๐ŸŒท๐Ÿ’•
    The verse that came to mind was:
    โ€œIf we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and there is no truth in us. If we say that we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.” (1 John 1:8-9)

    1. Oh Marta I feel hugged and loved by you and my Husband. Thank you for sharing the verse. I am going to add it to my verses and read it whenever the enemy tries to convince me, my sins are not forgiven.

  11. You are such an encouraging woman my dear Yvonne. I love you bwyond words, because in you I found an older woman to admire, to follow, that taught me always with love and patience. Your journey is an awesome testimony of what the Lord does in our lives if we allow Him.
    You are loved, cherish, forgiven and His precious daughter and bride, there is nothing that can separate you from His love for you.
    We all only humand, we will make mistakes but take heart that only shows that our Beloved is the only One who is perfect and our flaws points everyone to Him.
    The Voice of Truth tells us that this happened for His glory.
    I love you โค๏ธ
    “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[b] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” R83839
    https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Romans+8%3A38-39&version=NLT;NIV

    1. Thank you so much, Isabella. I love where you said, our flaws point everyone to Him. I love and cherish you as well.

  12. Yvonne, este poco tiempo en RMIOU , he leido tus enseรฑanzas, y ese amor al.Seรฑor.me ha llenado mucho. Como.podriamos decir nada en tu contra, si El mismo es perdon y ninguna estamos excentas de cometer un error. Que El dirija tu camino y por mi parte darte gracias por cada recurso que nos hado.
    โ€ญโ€ญJuan 8:7 TLAโ€ฌโ€ฌ
    [7] Sin embargo, como no dejaban de hacerle preguntas, Jesรบs se levantรณ y les dijo: โ€”Si alguno de ustedes nunca ha pecado, tire la primera piedra.

    https://bible.com/bible/176/jhn.8.7.TLA

    Yvonne, this short time at RMIOU, I have read your teachings, and that love for the Lord has filled me a lot. How could we say anything against you, if He Himself is forgiveness and none of us are exempt from making a mistake. May He direct your path and for my part thank you for every resource He has given us.
    John 8:7 NLT
    [7] However, as they continued to ask him questions, Jesus stood up and said to them, โ€œIf any of you have never sinned, throw the first stone.โ€

    https://bible.com/bible/176/jhn.8.7.TLA

    1. It was amazing to hear that you were encouraged by me. Now it is my turn to be encouraged by you. Thank you so much, dear Liza.

      Fue increรญble saber que te animรฉ. Ahora es mi turno de ser animado por ti. Muchas gracias querida Liza.

  13. Like everyone else rather than thinking less (a popular lie that sadly too many believe) I LOVE and ADMIRE you MORE.

    The new post on Love at Last https://loveatlast.org/alive-ll75/ was written just for you, for โ€œsuch a time as thisโ€ because we ALL fall short but itโ€™s HIS BRIDE who has experienced His โ€œperfect love that casts out all fear โ€ who would rather โ€œboast about her weaknessโ€ so His power can elevate Him and His love ๐Ÿ’— so we can witness the transformation of more who can begin to come clean without fear of punishment.

    1. Thank you so much. You are right, I feel so loved and as if I am surrounded by women that is holding my hands up.

      Thank you for the Living Lessons, I enjoyed reading it so much and it was right at the appointed time. Also, having His word first is exactly what I needed. I love you so much and thank you for your wisdom and guidance. I thank my Husband for you and all the other ladies here.

  14. Yvonne l am an adulteress too, and you are more brave than l could ever be to confess. I respect you even more, value you even more and love you even more and l know for a fact that your Husband loves you even more too. You can never escape Him or his love no matter what you do.

    Psalm 139:7-12
    “Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.”

    1. Thank you Atarah, I am not brave at all. It is all Him. I love you so much Atarah. It is very encouraging to know that we can never escape His love.

  15. Querida Yvonne, nunca comentei aqui no loveatlast.
    Mas fui muito tocada por seu relato.
    Mas, talvez em minha grande inocรชncia, ou inexperiรชncia, ou falta de conhecimentoโ€ฆnรฃo seiโ€ฆquando li seu relato pensei: โ€œO que ela fez de errado?โ€.
    Abraรงar o ex-mt estรก errado?
    No seu relato, vi que vocรช disse a ele que nรฃo estรก interessada nele e em mais ninguรฉmโ€ฆpois tenho certeza que em seu coraรงรฃo vocรช sabia quem ocupava este espaรงoโ€ฆo seu Senhor, seu Amado, seu Marido.

    Nรฃo se culpe, pois isso รฉ o que o inimigo usa para te afastar do seu Maridoโ€ฆque te ama da mesma forma ontem, hoje e eternamente!

    E peรงo, humildemente, que me esclareรงam se eu estou errada. Pois quero aprender mais.
    Peรงo perdรฃo se meu ponto de vista estรก distorcido

    Dear Yvonne, I never commented here on loveatlast.
    But I was very touched by her story.
    But, perhaps in my great innocence, or inexperience, or lack of knowledge… I don’t know… when I read her report I thought: โ€œWhat did she do wrong?โ€
    Is hugging your ex wrong?
    In his report, I saw that you told him that you are not interested in him or anyone else… because I am sure that in your heart you knew who occupied this space… your Lord, your Beloved, your Husband.

    Don’t blame yourself, because this is what the enemy uses to keep you away from your Husband…who loves you the same way yesterday, today and forever!

    And I humbly ask you to clarify if I’m wrong. Because I want to learn more.
    I apologize if my point of view is distorted

    1. Dear Camilla, yes he is my ex, but he is also married. It would have been wrong of me to hug any man, but a married man. That is even worse.
      I have a chapter in my Restoration Journey Novel that I am working on called “Two Wives” and that is exactly what was happening.
      I am sure you will understand it better once I release that chapter.
      More than any of that, I love my Husband with all my heart and I want Him to be my Husband and no one else, so acting on feelings for another man, means I am cheating. I should not have been in that position to even start with.
      I hope this explains it a bit better. In the end what I want is for Him to be all.

      Querida Camilla, sim, ele รฉ meu ex, mas tambรฉm รฉ casado. Teria sido errado da minha parte abraรงar qualquer homem, exceto um homem casado. Isso รฉ ainda pior.
      Tenho um capรญtulo em meu romance da Jornada de Restauraรงรฃo no qual estou trabalhando chamado โ€œDuas Esposasโ€ e รฉ exatamente isso que estava acontecendo.
      Tenho certeza de que vocรช entenderรก melhor assim que eu lanรงar esse capรญtulo.
      Mais do que tudo isso, amo meu marido de todo o coraรงรฃo e quero que ele seja meu marido e mais ninguรฉm, portanto, agir de acordo com os sentimentos de outro homem significa que estou traindo. Eu nรฃo deveria estar nessa posiรงรฃo nem para comeรงar.
      Espero que isso explique um pouco melhor. No final o que eu quero รฉ que Ele seja tudo.

      https://narrowroadpublishinghouse.com/rjn-yvonne/

  16. Querida Yvonne, al igual que todas las demรกs damas, quiero animarte como tรบ has animado tantas veces, a otras mujeres en todos estos aรฑos; corazones rotos y arrepentidos han sido alentados por tus sabias palabras y tus hermosos testimonios, somos conscientes que nadie estรก exento de pecado, todas tenemos tentaciones y caรญdas. Mi viaje es mรกs corto que el tuyo pero quiero alentarte porque de eso se trata este compaรฑerismo NO es culpar o condenar es levantar y sostener no solo en las pruebas sino tambiรฉn en nuestros errores, somos obras en construcciรณn y lo seremos durante toda nuestra vida, levantar la mirada y volver a fijarla en aquel que tanto te ama y perdona, es la decisiรณn mรกs sabia. Y tรบ eres una mujer mayor que ha enseรฑado este principio y ahora mismo lo estรก poniendo en prรกctica.
    Su amor es inagotable y eterno y coincido con cada una de las promesa que cada hermosa novia te ha compartido. Quien tirarรญa la primera piedra? Estoy convencida que ninguna, todas pecamos y caemos pero tambiรฉn nos levantamos.

    โ€porque aunque caiga siete veces, otras tantas se levantarรก; pero los malvados se hundirรกn en la desgracia.โ€œ
    โ€ญโ€ญProverbiosโ€ฌ โ€ญ24โ€ฌ:โ€ญ16โ€ฌ โ€ญDHH94Iโ€ฌโ€ฌ
    https://bible.com/bible/52/pro.24.16.DHH94I
    Querida Yvonne el conoce nuestra condiciรณn frรกgil y dรฉbil y el TE AMA igual que lo hizo ayer y lo harรก maรฑana โ™ฅ๏ธ

    Dear Yvonne, like all the other ladies, I want to encourage you as you have encouraged other women so many times over the years; broken and repentant hearts have been encouraged by your wise words and your beautiful testimonies, we are aware that no one is exempt from sin, we all have temptations and falls. My journey is shorter than yours but I want to encourage you because that is what this fellowship is about. It is NOT blaming or condemning, it is lifting up and sustaining not only in trials but also in our mistakes, we are works in progress and we will be throughout our lives, Raising your gaze and fixing it again on the one who loves and forgives you so much is the wisest decision. And you are an older woman who has taught this principle and is now putting it into practice herself.
    Her love is inexhaustible and eternal and I agree with each of the promises that each beautiful bride has shared with you. Who would throw the first stone? I am convinced that none of us, we all sin and fall but we also get up.

    โ€because even if he falls seven times, he will rise up seven times; but the wicked will sink into misfortune.โ€
    Proverbs 24:16 DHH94I
    https://bible.com/bible/52/pro.24.16.DHH94I
    Dear Yvonne, he knows our fragile and weak condition and he LOVES YOU just as he did yesterday and will tomorrow โ™ฅ๏ธ

    1. Kathleen, I am reading through all the comments and with each one I have tears in my eyes, because I am seeing you all being so encouraging. I got to yours and again I could just feel the love coming out of each word. Thank you so much.

      Kathleen, estoy leyendo todos los comentarios y con cada uno tengo lรกgrimas en los ojos, porque veo que todos ustedes son muy alentadores. Lleguรฉ al tuyo y nuevamente pude sentir el amor saliendo de cada palabra. Muchas gracias.

  17. Yvonne I can never see you less, but see you with His love like He sees you, He has forgiven you, you are still His bride and He the love of your life. We all have fallen at sometime one way or another, but He is so graceful He always forgives me and bless me double for my sin or mistake, and He will also bless you He is your rock.
    “for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.”
    https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Rom.3.23,Rom.3.24&version=NIV
    This was a trial, We love you and respect you and the fact that you shared this here just streghten my faith in Him. Remember in 1 Corinthians we are thought that Love cast out all fears and it doesn’t judge.
    https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1%20Corinthians%2013&version=NIV

    1. Thank you, Jewel. I appreciate your encouragement so much. You are right, He has forgiven me and I am still His beautiful Bride whom He loves very much.

  18. Dear Yvonne, I have to say that I am also an adulteress to our Beloved too. And like Ruby also mentioned our Beloved doesnโ€™t see it that way! All is done by faith in Him. As long our hearts โ™ฅ๏ธ belongs to Him, we are no longer an adulteress, it is by grace..

    Your transparency and concern just shows that you are devoted to Him, I am not yet there, like you.

    You , and Atarah and other ladies that I came to know from the beginning of my journey were the older woman that I were searching to teach me what is good, and how to be a Godly wife and mother.

    Really thank you for sharing, this really made me to think and the Fear of the Lord came upon me and my eyes now. Thank very, very much.

    1. It is by grace Naomi, thank you. A lot of your praise reports have encouraged me as well over the years. Seeing all of us learn from each other and grow in our relationship with our Husband is so amazing.

  19. I didn’t know that behavior was not allowed….i would have definitely done the same thing. Now I know what to say if placed I n a similar situation since now eh had a wedding ceremony

  20. Hola querida novia, el seรฑor es bueno y perdonador y en sus brazos estarรกs bien, sigue adelante con nuestro amado el es el รบnico que nos limpia u nos restaura, no estรกs sola.
    Con amor ETERNO dice el seรฑor te he amado.
    y su amor no cambia.

    Hello dear girlfriend, the Lord is good and forgiving and in his arms you will be fine, move on with our beloved, he is the only one who cleanses us and restores us, you are not alone.
    With ETERNAL love says the Lord I have loved you.
    and his love does not change.

    1. Thank you Nelly. Yes, I am moving on with my Husband. Next week my children will not be with me, so I am really looking forward to just have a wonderful time with Him alone and use this time to bring restoration between us.

      Gracias Nelly. Sรญ, sigo adelante con mi esposo. La prรณxima semana mis hijos no estarรกn conmigo, asรญ que tengo muchas ganas de pasar un tiempo maravilloso a solas con ร‰l y utilizar este tiempo para traer restauraciรณn entre nosotros.

  21. My dear Yvonne, I felt very sad about what you are going through because your teachings have guided me and have been a blessing to my life. My dear, even with this confession you continue to teach me greatly. Thank you for your obedience

    I have to confess to you that I had to look to my Beloved to understand how you could have failed, however He reminded me that He knows our hearts and that it is already a great blessing to show us our falls to cleanse and bless us.

    I also looked for him to find out how he would like me to encourage you and he reminded me: “For the righteous fall seven times, and rise again…”

    My dear, no one, none of us is exempt from falling, and we must recognize that we have all been adulteresses; that if it were due to our works, thoughts or feelings, we would be far from His Presence.

    But now we have His Love, Grace and Forgiveness without which we could not enjoy the hope we now have; Even our Beloved is more than capable of transforming our falls into blessings, He reminded me Isaiah 40 for you.

    My dear Yvonne, I want to tell you that I am looking forward to the chapter of your novel that you are working on because I know that it will fill us with wisdom, and finally I want you to know that you are a wise woman whom I love in the love of my Beloved and I greatly respect you

    1. Hi dear Perla, thank you so much for your sweet, kind words. I have often wondered that same thing, dear Perla, how could I have failed and maybe it was pride that made me fall because apart from Him we can do nothing. I don’t want any other man except my Heavenly Husband, but only He can do that in my life. I can do nothing else but just depend on Him every second.
      Thank you for your beautiful verse, it is a confirmation of what He gave me too.

  22. Dear, dear Yvonne,
    I just read your blog and honestly don’t know what I could tell you as encouragement. Then I know this for sure “nothing can separate us from the love of our HH”. He has not left you and has already forgiven you for the mistake you made.
    I can certainly imagine that the struggle you have been through in recent weeks is one that you would never wish on another woman. Despite that, I also know that our Lord allows something to happen to a person who knows that his/her heart belongs to Him. Like Job. There is nothing to be ashamed of and certainly no need to think that you can no longer be an encouraging woman to all of us. I now see you standing next to Erin and one day fully leading this ministry. In addition, we all know how cunning the enemy is. But with what happened to you and you are now sharing with us, I can now confirm for myself that I am happy that my HH keeps my former husband, who has not remarried but lives with AV, away from me. I was disappointed about that for a long time. However, now I know that He knows better why that happens. I wouldn’t want to think about how many times I would have committed adultery towards my HH. Our flesh is sometimes so weak and then the enemy attacks. Our Lord is therefore merciful to us and forgives us our weaknesses, for He knows us.
    As for myself, your testimony is a source of inspiration and encouragement to have our hearts examined daily by Him To certainly remove the lukewarmness that has been taking place in my own life in recent months. Although I have not committed adultery physically, I have committed adultery with my eyes by lusting after other things and people. Only because of not being able to forgive myself for the many mistakes I have made in the past. I also know that as brides we will fall every now and then, just like David in the Bible. And yet our God called him a man after His own heart. I certainly believe that you are a woman after His own heart who He loves very much.
    I would ask that you do not give up your position in this Ministry unless you have heard it clearly from your HH.

    Psalm 24:1-6
    “1The earth is the Lord’s and the fullness thereof,
    the world and those who dwell in it.
    2For He founded it on the seas
    and settled on the streams.
    3Who may ascend the mountain of the Lord,
    who may stand in his holy place?
    4He who is clean in hands and pure in heart,
    who does not set his soul to falsehood, nor swears deceitfully.
    5He will receive a blessing from the Lord
    and the righteousness of the God of his salvation.
    6This is the generation of those who ask for Him;
    who seek your presence; that’s Jacob.
    selah

    1. Kristine, first of all, I love the promise you left me, it is beautiful. You are in a fortunate position of not having to see your fh. I can also tell you that I am now in that position. He had me break all ties. My children are teenagers now so I don’t have to be a go-between for them anymore. They now arrange their own weekends with their dad. Something He showed Erin and when she told me and I asked Him, He confirmed it. His timing was amazing, so now I don’t have to see him, talk to him or anything. I can continue with the Love of my life and we can leave the past behind because just as you said in your message, He has already forgiven me. He is busy cleaning up the mess I caused and I can just rest in Him.
      Thank you for being such a thoughtful encouraging woman.

  23. I have to confess that I went outside the boundaries of safety and checked Facebook now I am deeply wounded. I have been protected for years not even knowing any detail about ow now I saw a picture of eh and his new wife. I am so ashamed. FB is never worth it.

    1. Facebook is never worth it. I have this ministry and my friend Janine to thank for not going on Facebook and looking anyone up or else I would have fallen into that pit as well. It just causes us heartache and pain.

      When I asked Him why me and so many other women want to snoop and find out what is going on is because we want to be in that “victim” state. Now, I am not saying it is true for you, but is certainly was for me.

      The only way to get out of that pit is to stay close to Him and let Him fill your mind. Whenever you feel you want to go to Facebook, visit our blog and read a beautiful praise, or go into your bible app and read His word. It worked for me and so many other women before me, it will work for you as well.

      โ€œDo not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. R12:2

      https://biblehub.com/romans/12-2.htm

  24. Dear Yvonne, I am so glad to have you in my life like a friend which testimonies had helped me so much, whose words encouraged and made me feel so honored to walk by your side in this journey ๐Ÿ‘ฃ.
    I had the opportunity to read all you wrote and all the comments and I have teary eyes, because I am thinking not only in you, but in your kids and all the beauty that your HH is building in you all ๐Ÿ’— You keep on teaching and encouraging us with your testimony and I have to confess that what you shared leads not only you, my dear, but all of us to another level! He is awesome to take the good from anything, isn’t He?
    Yes! That’s what I feel, I confess that I am also an adultress, but I also confess that I don’t want to be or feel like this anymore, eventhough I know how weak I am, so that’s why I need to embrace Him and His perfect plans and led Him hold me so if I fall, I can fall in His arms – this is the view He gave me : you in His armsโฃ๏ธ
    So thank you for confessing and being such an encouraging woman to all of us!
    There’s something else that I want to share that is this is so helpful for us a reminder that not only none of us is perfect! That’s why we must not go to Erin, or Yvonne, Adina, Anastacia, Janine, Kristine or Paula – we have to run only to HIM, himself – He is all that we need!
    “if you extract the precious from the worthless, You will become My spokesman.”
    https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=jeremias+15%3A19&version=NIV;NASB;NLT
    “Remove your sandals from your feet, for the place where you are standing is holy.โ€
    https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=josue%205%3A15&version=NIV,NASB,NLT

    1. Thank you so much Paula. What a wonderful vision you give me now. When we fall, we fall into His arms. I could just picture it the way you said it.
      Yes, we need to run to Him. I have this story that I share all the time and I do it with Janine’s blessing, because when she said it to me, it stuck with me and I will never forget her words.
      When we were working together we sat on opposite sides of the building. On the same floor, but the building is a long one so it takes about 5 minutes to get from her office to mine. One day something happened, I cannot even remember what it was, but something happened to her and she came to my office. She said as she rushed down the long corridor on her way to me, she heard the Lord clearly say: “I wish you would run to me like you are running to Yvonne now”.
      This was really such an eye-opener for her, but also because she shared it with me and not just kept it to herself, it was something that I also always remembered and often shared.
      I love your testimonies and encouragement just as much Paula. Whenever we talk or I read something of you, I see us sitting at a table at the airport in France. Thank you for your friendship and your love.

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