What I’ve Always Longed For

Yesterday I had 2 people that wanted to talk to me about things they were struggling with in their lives. As always I asked my Husband to speak to them because I don’t know what to say or have any answers for them but I know that He does. It is Him they need not me. During one conversation with a family member, I notice he tends to rely on me or things around them to “feel closer” to the Lord and becomes upset when I don’t respond to text messages quick enough. I let them know that I am sometimes occupied and I also, like to talk to my Beloved before I speak. Sometimes He asks me not to speak. I don’t do anything unless I hear from my Beloved first. It is not my words but His Words that needs to be spoken. Sometimes I spend my own time alone with Him and He removes me from everyone and everything else around me. Sometimes He is breaking me and I can do nothing but fix my eyes on Him and draw closer to Him.

My Husband asked me to encourage this person to seek the Lord for himself not through me or other people. He had me explain it to him like this. My Lord that is with me is The Mighty Healer at the moment as I am going through some physical struggles and healing, and of course He is always my Husband as well. That is not what you need. Your Lord that you need is what you need to seek Him for, for yourself. He wants you to go straight to Him.

After the conversation, something he said stood out to me. He said- it’s going to take some time for me to be where you are. Well that made me think about where I am. My thoughts were- wait a minute, I could write a long list of things going wrong for myself physically, my finances and my household right now, I am going through my own struggles. So this made me realize that even though I am going through a long list of struggles that I still have a peace beyond all understanding. I still have joy. I still have the unconditional love of my Amazingly Faithful Husband and I am very content with my life. Whatever trials that come against me it only brings me closer to my Beloved. Whenever I am face down on the floor He takes me by both hands, lifts me up and holds me safely in His protecting arms.

Before, people could only see my oh so sad situation and feel sorry for me, refusing to see the peace, joy and love that I had. Now people can only see the peace, joy and love that I have, that they don’t even see my struggles at all. To them it seems that my struggles don’t even exist!! What a change my Husband has made in me, my countenance and my everyday words, just being who he created me to be. He lives in me and I just may finally radiate His light and love, like I’ve always longed for. It is only Him that can open the eyes and change the hearts of the people around us. In His perfect timing and according to His perfect plan and purpose. πŸ’•

James 1:2-4 My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have it’s perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.

Psalm 34:5 Those who look to Him are radiant, their faces are never covered with shame.

10 thoughts on “What I’ve Always Longed For”

  1. Thank you for sharing this beautiful praise dear Ruby, how beautiful that our wonderful Lord has turned around how people see your situation, and I believe they see hope now through your situation, because there is for sure hope in our wonderful Lord.

  2. Ruby, I love that you have become content with what’s going on around you with your struggles. How great that He has worked in you to have joy through it all and to be an encourager to others.

  3. Ruby how awesome that you are winning without a Word people are seeing what He has done in you and they yearn for that which you have and they don’t. And you continuously bless the Lord a d give Him all the honor and Praise and because you lift Him up He will lift you up. Thanks for sharing and giving me hope in my family situations. Blessings to you and your family.

      1. Thank you Erin it’s better to give then receive. I have always been encouraged through RMI and love ❀️ giving encouragement.

  4. Thank you for sharing Ruby, the biggest difference I saw in myself and others that found their Beloved Heavenly Husband, is HOW we go through trails. Before I found Him I used to freak out about everything going “wrong” in my life, but now I have my Beloved Husband and I can run to Him in the midst’s of the trail and surrender everything to Him to deal with. He taught me so many things going through the trails, and although I will be on the Potter’s Wheel for the rest of my life, every trail helped to form and refine me. (https://hopeatlast.com/c1/d2-chapter-2-the-potter-and-the-clay/)

    ‘Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. ‘ (James 1:2-3)
    Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.
    (James 1:12)

  5. Thank you Ruby dear for sharing your testimony, can you believe I am going through something similar? Without a doubt our Beloved has done something in our hearts that attracts them. We must pray that our loved ones also feel His Love and that we be wise not to interfere in how our Husband attracts them.

  6. Thanks for sharing dear. I identify with you, because people tend to look for intermediaries between our relationship with the Lord, I think it is like a learned pattern, personally since my childhood I thought that only some β€œvery important” people had the privilege of having direct communication with the Lord, so I was used to seeking Him through others. It freed me to know that God made the way through his son so that we could have entry to his throne of grace and mercy to have an intimate relationship with HIM. Certainly seeing the testimony of so many ladies here helped me embrace the truth and encourage others to obtain for themselves that relationship and answers that only HE can give.

  7. thanks for sharing I agree so much with you because when we let go everything in His hands , we begin to see the peace that comes from Him and others too and to see we have our direct messaging DM or conection with Him and He never rejects any message, any prayer or any heart!!!

  8. Thank you for sharing Ruby! It’s not that our circumstances have changed but we have changed because we have Him, we have everything. “The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.” Ps. 23:1

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