The Lord is wonderful, I don’t how and what I can do to repay my wonderful HH “Heavenly Husband”. I tear up every day with my heart full of joy every time I think of how blessed I have been in what others would think to be the hardest time of my life. I was led in so many different ways to do a 7 day fast. I prayed to my wonderful Husband to guide me through how and what to fast because I was so concerned about fasting food due to how skinny I am and the amount of weight I had lost.
He examines the heart! And answers unprayed prayers.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever! (Eph. 3:20)
Well, He told me, I must trust him and I prayed again to choose my weakness as a choice to fast, somehow that was not good enough. I was led to a fasting challenge immediately after reading the Q&A where Erin mentioned that 7-day fasting represents completion. My thoughts had been invaded by 7 days fast. That was enough for me to proceed and I decided to trust the Lord to send me some types of guided ways to do this, fasting whatever I was guided to fast…, he did, but interestingly enough the scale went up 2 pounds since starting this 5 days ago.
My whole fast was to pray for my EH “earthly husband” and for the Lord to help me show my EH the gentle and quiet spirit that my HH had made me be. Oh, he is working on me, during this fast, he led me to pray for myself for once. I did and yes he finally got me all to himself and I got to be intimate with Him by Him speaking to me through songs coming up mysteriously on my playlists that speak in ways I asked Him to. I have prayed for Him to show me a balance to complete this fast while mourning my Grandmother’s passing without allowing the enemy to interrupt. The enemy sneaked in with a few interruptions in my dreams and in thoughts about my Grandmother’s funeral coming up this Saturday. Telling me to be prepared to face embarrassment…. 400+ people may ask questions about where my EH is? EH had plans to go his way on Saturday. I can even see and hear the faces of each one that will ask…
This time I didn’t fall apart, I went to my car and had a talk with my best friend and confidante. I asked permission to tell everyone that asks that my EH is home not well..? I know He needs me to keep my situation concealed just between him and I. I asked him to prepare me for the number of questions I am going to get from family, colleagues and my mom ’s churchgoers… I never prayed once for the Lord to put it in my EH’s heart to go say his final goodbye to the Grandma that supported us for a while with our 1st born. Deep down in my heart, there was a tiny little hope that he would at least, if not for me, he would go for our boys because they love their great grandma… I felt I shouldn’t keep asking the Lord for too much more during my fast; I had already done enough of stepping out of what I was fasting for..praying for my mother and sisters that are so divided against my Grandmother’s wish…
He said He’ll never leave me, I will never put me to shame and I should not lie.
Still conflicted, my brother came over because my mother is too distraught to make dinner…I tried to keep my thoughts to myself. My EH came inside of the house and asked me what can he do to support the kids and me, he said he knows I am going through a hard time right now, to let him know if I want him to do anything. Praise be to my Love! He also asked if I want him to go to the funeral, and what he should wear because he doesn’t want to wear a suit.
What? Only You, my Lord can answer Unprayed prayers…praise your powerful name!
Ephesians 1:5 “Let us praise God for his glorious grace, for the free gift he gave us in his dear Son”!
Praise the Lord! My Dearest Lord, I love you deeply, I love you dearly, Lord. How can I ever repay you? How can I tell the world what you have done in my life? You have been so good to me I want to give you praise with every living cell in my body. All the praise to you my King!
~ Angel in Florida
I’m a Christian married to a Jewish man.