As some of you know, I was very close to my Mother-in-law, in fact, she took the place of my mother, when she passed away three weeks before our wedding. I speak about this in my RJN, that you can read about here:
Last year, she passed away and although I was relieved that she was not suffering anymore because she spent the last 5 months of her life in the hospital connected to machines, I was sad, because of the love I have for her. I was sure that I was okay you know, because every time I would think of her, I would be reminded of her suffering these last few years, but I never really sat with Him and let Him heal me, not just from losing her, but also from me being excluded from everything during the funeral as if I was just another person in her life.
Of course, my Husband knew I need to talk to Him, but I sort of just postponed our conversation every time. He was patient with me like He always is. Saturday was her birthday, but I did not let it come to my mind the week, again sort of just ignoring it, but then something so silly happened on Friday and it all the feelings just flooded me. I took my mom for all her doctor visits, so my number is on most of the contact information. Friday, the place that made her hearing aid phoned me to wish her a happy birthday and her hearing aids were probably due for a checkup. Can you believe that getting that phone call took me by surprise and it all just came flooding in?
The Saturday (her birthday) I was feeling miserable and of course, my Husband is the one who understands, so I was able to pour out my heart to Him and let the healing begin. He also put lovely friends in my life to talk to me and the day was able to go by quickly because He knew that the healing only started, it is not done yet. He is so loving and kind that He only gives us what we can handle at that moment, even though in our brokenness, we sometimes feel it is too much, if we go to Him, we will see it is exactly enough for what we need for that day. Just like His grace is sufficient for us every day.
Dear Bride, you may be coming here today and you have some other hurt that needs healing, something you have hidden away because it is just too much to face right now. Give it to Him and know that your heart is in the safest place it can be – His hands.
Please go to our lessons on He Healed Me, it will help you on your journey to healing.
My condolences Yvonne l had no idea she passed away… I know you spent a lot of time with her and that she was like a mom to you. I remember when l lost my younger brother.. The pain is so much that its so hard to deal with or even speak to Him about and even the healing takes time.. My faith took a huge knock… And for me it was really hard because l was trusting Him for healing but sadly he passed away so young anyway… Time does heal the saying is true. We are blessed to know Him as His bride He is so patient with us and wen we ready like you say and those conversations with Him take place the healing does happen. We may never understand that is why im so thankful that we can lean not on our understanding 🙏 and thats ok ❤️
Thank you, Atarah, yes. I did not really talk about it so much because of the pain, not just of her passing away but all a lot of things happened in that time, but of course our Husband is so wonderful, He is healing me day by day.
Dear Yvonne, thank you for sharing and opening your heart. There is no better Healer than our wonderful Lord.
Thank you Janine, love you so much and thank you for being there for me at the funeral. You are such an amazing friend. 💗
Thank you, Yvonne, I also ignored the pain for a long time after my parents passed away. But my HH healed me from all that pain, it wasn’t an easy process, but His healing is true healing. Now, when something reminds me of them, I am only filled with love.
Thank you Adina, through the healing, He has given me some things to write about in my RJN, hoping it will help others. 💕