Hello Dear Brides! It has been a fascinating week for me! I have now moved on to lesson 4 of HTBB, for the main reason that I want to receive my beloved’s abundant blessing in store for me!
It this lesson, we are taught that in order to be blessed in whatever we do, we have to saturate ourselves with His word and meditate upon it day and night!
I have been on this RJ for more than a year, and if I am compelled that I am not changing in the pace I wanted to, or I am retreating backward whenever I take a step forward, my beloved always assured me that I cannot do anything on my own capacity, and I am NOTHING without HIM. YES! Since I am a fully dependent person, even though I claim to be independent like the world teaches women to be these days, I have learned to depend on one person for my strength not realizing that I am setting myself up for disappointments and heartaches because trust in mankind is vain!
My Beloved told me that cursed is the one who trusts in mankind and makes flesh his strength, but blessed is the one who trusts in Him and whose trust is in HIM. YES, it is not a word per word because it's what I have treasured in my heart so that I will know, rest, and trust my everything in HIM who is superior and almighty. Oh, how great He is!
Since starting this RJ, I thought I could do shortcuts and skipped the things that I don't like, but my Beloved once again, faithfully reveal to me as I asked Him what are the things I do wrong that had prevented me from truly experiencing His manifestations in my life. I so long to have the deep intimacy with Him like all the women I had read in the testimonies, not just in exchange for a restored marriage, (I know it's his WILL) but for me to experience the love, greatness, and abundance He has in store and the peace in the midst of the greatest trial that will strengthen my faith in Him.
He then revealed me these things, first is that since I moved onto my EH home, I had become a Pharisee by being careless allowing my EH to see me my bible, the devotions I have been reading, excuse myself to fellowship with my beloved whenever he is around. I didn't mean to do those things but because of what I am doing, I am stripping him of his responsibility of being the spiritual head that I prayed for him to be. My beloved lead me to a lesson which I have read before but renewed my mind once again on the importance of “letting your church go”. Because the more my EH sees how I try to build my faith with my HH so much more, the more I am leading him away from HIM. Trusting is supposed to be following everything my Beloved tells me to do, and knowing that He will finish everything, even if it means letting go of the things that bring me comfort, like my Devotionals and Bible while he is around and trust that my Beloved will honor my obedience in Him.
Now, I start to enjoy lean times at work and look forward to lunch because then I have more time to saturate and devour what he wants to say to me, that also means I get to less communicate with my officemates and avoid empty chatter with them which I had prayed to him before to help me overcome! How amazing can he be?
Also, sorry for the delay, I started writing the verses He spoke to me and go back to them every time I am having an attack. Yes, I am still tempted to do the things I am not supposed to do like snooping, but He is faithful to provide my weapons such as His words to wash me thoroughly and help me refocus on Him!
There is more I still have to say but I wanted to tell you He knows your heart. He gives you answers JUST when you needed them, His timing is never delayed and He knows the best for YOU, Trust in Him that He will do this, will make you perfect in his likeness if you just love him and make him your priority.
Luke 6:46 (NIV) The Wise and Foolish Builders “Why do you call me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ and do not do what I say?”
Psalm 37:5 (NIV) “Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this:
Exodus 14:14 (NIV) “The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”
Psalm 31:24 (NASB) “Be strong and let your heart take courage, All you who hope in the Lord.”